Hey guys, so for those of you who didn't get a chance to read my last blog post, i have moved URL's. All the reasonings are now on the blog. Nothing too fancy just needed a new start! I am keeping this blog up for a little while longer for those who would like to follow.
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So I created a new blog and this lovely one will be hitting the hay in a week or so. To find out why go ahead and click on the new link! I have loved all the comments and followers on this blog and hope that you will still continue to read on even though I moved URLS. Now I will tempt you to click on the link by a silly rhyme.
For those of you who are super close to me and such you know I have had a goal in mind for YEARS. No joke, at least 17 years. That would put me at 5 years old right? Me and numbers ha. Anyway, since I could remember I have wanted to be an author and a teacher. The teacher part I am working on right now and that can only go so fast, but I have wanted more then anything to be an author. I have never cared if I would make a million dollars, or get a movie deal or anything huge like that. All I have ever wanted is for a book to be published with my name on it and allow one human being to escape into my world. Just forget what's going on around them. I wouldn't care if it got a thousand negative feedbacks, (ok maybe that would sting) but if one person said Wow, it would make everything ok in the world.
Since I was 5 I have "started" my books. I would write and write and write and then I BAM nothing. I think back to each book and I have no excuse to why I stopped, I just did. The funny thing is it's not only 10 pages in, it's like 50-90. I am near the finish line and I just abandon ship. I will write a few pages and let someone close to me read it. If they liked it I would keep going, if they didn't I would edit, rewrite and try again. I somehow just lose the motivation.
I have been told many times by my mother "If your scared to do something then it's probably right." I think I freak myself out when I near the end. "What if people actually do like this book?" I have never done anything amazing and never really utilized my talents to their fullest. I feel like pinterest. Yes you heard me pinterest. I keep pinning all of these ideas, and it appears I have all these talents, but that's where they stay stuck on my board with a tack. But after tonight I have decided. I have no more excuses. I have cashed in my last chip. I need to do this for myself. I need to become an example for my coming daughter that obtaining your goals and dreams is something everyone needs to strive for and it is possible! I have almost felt like I have just skated by in life with my goals. And I WILL finish at least one of my books. So if this post totally bores you, then I'm sorry but this is for me to look back on and see in writing that I have no excuses and I need to kick my butt into gear. So here it goes. I will complete a book of mine! Once that's accomplished I will move onto the publishing stage but we will take it a day at a time. Any ways, that's it, just had it get it off my chest. So watch out world. here I come!
I always knew when a child was on the way all parents (or at least some mothers I have heard of) Put heavy pressures on themselves to make sure they do all they can do for their baby. To be honest, I haven't felt that way. AT least not about raising our child. Some lessons I have learned from my parents is that you pray for strength to raise them the best of your ability, know when to be the parent first and the friend second. Teach them all you can and you hope that they listen and apply the lessons they have learned into their lives. So I have allowed myself to realize we are only human and that we will raise her to the best of our ability and be the best examples we can be.
I couldn't be more excited to have this little baby girl come into our lives. I cant wait to have those sleepless nights, struggles of getting a schedule together and all the other struggles that come with a newborn. But I am feeling pressure from outside sources. I never realized how hard it is to please everyone. And that's my problem I don't need to please everyone. My family is what comes first and we have to make our decisions based off our needs and every one needs to go with it or don't go with it all. Now I know they aren't doing it on purpose, and it's not their goal to make me feel this way, but hey.
I'm a sensitive person I will fully admit it! 100%. Now being pregnant I am 200% sensitive. I am fully aware of it and try pull the reigns on it when I notice it, but sometimes it's hard and I wish I could put a big ol goofy smile on all friends and family members but I know that's not possible, not even close to realistic. Has anyone else felt this way? Any other tips would be helpful!
on the positive side, I passed my Literacy Exam and it boosted up my confidence in my schooling and am ready to keep going and graduate as soon as I can. So yay! There's the positive side note!
I can't believe I only have 7 1/2 more weeks! This little one could arrive anytime in between. Fingers crossed. My mamma never made it to any of her due dates and my Dr. pointed out most women take after their mothers. So I'm hoping I follow in her footsteps! I had an appointment on Monday, according to the doc everything is great! She is growing at a great pace, is head down and I am in the weight category I should be in. My only issue is my Iron levels were a little low, but she told me most women's iron levels drop a little bit at the time I took the test. Great news! My glucose levels are good so no Gestational Diabetes for me! Which my mother was relieved since she was diagnosed with it every pregnancy.
Michael is hoping she will be born on his birthday so I won't make a big deal out of it (Since Birthday's are my favorite) But I told him it would still be just as big with or without Baby girl born on that day. We are starting to take guesses when she is coming. So if you have one throw it on out! It seems April has many dates that are important to people that I am close with which is a-ok, I am hoping that she will be born on one day without a special meaning so she can have her own day but at this point I will just be happy whenever she decides to come on out!
I love feeling this little one wiggle in me. In fact the other night Michael snuggled up to me so he could get his head scratched. He was leaning against my belly and Evie rolled from my right side to my left side right up against Michael. It was really heart warming. As much as I love feeling her inside me I am over pregnancy ha. She loves to push on my bladder and kick my ribs. I feel like she is constantly arching her back and my acid reflux is increasingly getting worse and with my funky memory I sometimes forget to take my medicine. Sitting is becoming a challenge, which is difficult since I do online school and I am constantly out of breath. I don't feel like sugar coating it, but I know some women feel fantastic during the whole process. I on the other hand do not and that's ok. I am grateful for this blessing and to become a mom to this little one is something I will not regret one little bit!
Sorry for being MIA for almost two weeks. After a three hour drive to DC to the airport an 8 hour flight and a 6 hour drive to St. George and then doing it all over again 10 days later. I was ready to just take a break. I went through three time zones, Eastern, Mountain and Pacific. If getting jetlag is possible in the states I am pretty sure I had it! Plus being 8 months pregnant probably didn't help either. I am so happy I got to go out and see my twin sister get married! I definitely would have been so mad at myself if I wasn't able to do so! She looked beautiful and her now husband looked like he was in heaven seeing her walk down the aisle. It a huge family affair, my granny's danced to the steps of the 50's and Evie and I got our groove on. We stuffed our faces with Sugar cookies from The Sugar Cookie and Dutchman's, a hot chocolate bar and gourmet popcorn! So fun and her photographer was amazing, Dezaray Clifford. Check her out here! By the end of the night My feet were swollen out to Texas and I was ready for a good nights rest. I miss my family back in Cal-I-For-NIA but I missed Michael like crazy and was so excited to see his face at the airport! I have been frantically catching up on school work trying to get ahead in case this little one makes an early appearance. Michael's Ship just got dry docked so we know he isn't going anywhere till at least January. Life is just great and dandy and I couldn't be any more happy with our little lives :) Love you twinner and Congrats to the new couple MR & MRS. TABISH!
I love our Valentines Day! We always keep it simple and we worry more about showing appreciation and our love towards each other then who bought the most expensive gift. But surprises definitely don't hurt. I had to take Michael to work at 5:45 am if I wanted the car for the day. He loves Red Velvet anything and I wanted to make him some red velvety goodness, so if I wanted to go get the ingredients I needed a car. Plus some minor errands to run before I depart for California tomorrow (YIPEE). I worked on some homework went to the store, ran my errands and came home and started cooking! I finished the frosting and placed them on the table, made a breakfast dinner with heart shaped pancakes, bacon and an attempt at a heart shaped egg in toast (kinda failed). I was so excited to have this surprise ready. All that was left was waiting for Michaels phone call to come pick him up. When there was a knock at the door. I peeked out the hole and my heart skipped a beat. There was Michael on one knee. Two heart shaped balloons, a heart filled with chocolate wrapped in red cellophane and a dozen of the most vibrantly orange roses. Dang it... He pulled one on me. I teared up and he kissed me. He always knows how to make me feel special. We indulged in pancakes, cupcakes and black cherry soda. We snuggled up and watched the Hunt for Red October. (We're a sucker for those kind of movies, super romantic huh?) and just enjoyed knowing we have been together for 2 years, a baby girl on the way, a new adventure in the Navy and many more years of being together. Though times get tough we will be able to look back on this day and know everything will be alright.